If not, it’s okay. I’m not here to become famous, or to be found as some brilliant writer. I come here to get all the negative crap off my mind. I don’t expect anyone to absorb it, but maybe lend an ear, a piece of advice, that sort of thing. I’ve never in my life been so vulnerable as I am right now, as it’s ALL out there. For the world to read and judge. But I don’t care, because it’s not in my head any longer. Well, maybe in the very back of my mind, but definitely not in the forefront. So, if you do read my blog, I thank you. If you simply click the like button as a courtesy or sympathy like, please don’t feel that’s necessary. It’s like even WP has turned into one big popularity contest. I’m not into fame and fortune. I’m just into being me, making new friends and getting through some really trying times. I’ve lost friends and family over this stupid fucking diagnosis. Crazy. That’s what everyone calls me. And yet, I haven’t done one single thing that could be called crazy. Maybe stayed in an extremely toxic marriage for far too long, but that’s about it. They call me crazy because they want to see me beat up and defeated. Not going to happen. I know I’m not crazy. I’m different. I’m an individual at the brink of embracing my individuality. You don’t like it? Call me crazy and then go suck it. Your words can no longer hurt me. Like I said… live a day in my head and I bet you won’t last an hour. You’d be pushing 911 for all kinds of help wondering what the fuck is wrong with you, where I’ve got it all figured out. I know when a panic attack is starting, how to get through it and how to fight the PTSD and the severe depression. Hell, if I gave you my head for an hour, you’d probably kill yourself, hence making me so much more mentally in check than all of you who insist on calling me crazy, So, again, suck it. I’ve got this. You’ve got name calling. What are we? 5? Grow up people. Your words don’t effect me, but maybe you’ll say them to someone else who might not be as mentally strong as I am. How are you going to feel if YOUR WORDS cause them to take their own life? Think before you speak you ignorant idiots.
For those of you who do read… I wish you all the best.
~Crazy no more!!!!